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Thursday, November 22, 2007
Doubt...
This is another old blog I felt needed to be moved over.
Doubt is the most difficult thing to work through because as soon as you let it in, even just for a moment, it spreads and begins taking over. It becomes paralyzing. It some how works it's way into every aspect of your life. Pretty soon you're job doesn't seem to make sense, the choices that you've made don't feel right anymore. Everything is embued with this doubt, this fear that you can't do it. You try to counter act it by telling yourself that you can do anything as long as you put your mind to it, but deep down the doubt won't allow you to believe it. How do you fight that? How do you dispell the doubt? I really need to know because it seems to be taking over my life. I'm doubting on every level, but the level that is the most frustrating is my writing. I'm a writer, a pretty good one. And I'm in the middle of writing this spec TV script because I've decided that my passion lies in TV. (Film too but not to the extent of TV) but I can't seem to get started. I've done the research. I know the characters. I have my storyline but I can't seem to actually beat out (outline) the episode. I sit down at the keyboard and stare at the blank screen wishing something would come to me, but it never does. This just allows the doubt to grow and spread further. All I think about is that I'm a hack. I'm a hack that can't even get started. How am I going to be a professional TV writer if I can't even beat out an episode of a show that I thought I knew inside and out?
Doubt, it's the worst kind of evil. Its the kind we let into our own lives. I don't know how to fight it.
